Level 4: Satellite Location [4/11/22 | 249.8 lbs]

Evading a trap day. Recommitting to my big picture.

General Notes

I write this around 9am, and I can already FEEL today being a danger zone. I woke up later than I intended, had to jump straight to work, stuff is piling up,a nd I want to hide away from it by escaping into food. Like, go to Door Dash (even for breakfast) and order in a big bagel sandwich or something. 

I've been down this road. I know I'll probably go down this road again int he future. But I don't have to go down this road today.

Here's how I'll avoid this: As time allows:

• Cook a cheese omelet (250 cal).
• Take meds with water.
• Shower, brush my teeth, rinse with mouthwash.
• Make bed.

It's funny. I've been thinking what else to add to this list, assuming that it'd be a huge task, but... this is kind of it. I think this is what gets me back on track.

Sketching today's meals

• B: Cheddar omelet.
• L: Chipotle burrito bowl with brown rice, steak, salsa
• D: Salad with shrimp, fruit.

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Daily Article Notes

Relevant notes from my daily set of Noom articles.

• Motivation is going wax and wane. That's inevitable. There's an initial burst (the "honeymoon" phase), and a resultant crash. I've already experienced both, but as I continue on, there will be highs and lows of motivation. Ride it out, and when I slip, look forward to the coming rise.
• One key to riding this out is my ultimate, big picture goals. I wrote about those back on March 20th at level one. Cores:
• Lose 50-60 pounds, dropping below 200 lbs.
• Get out of the line of fire, away from the shame and awful looks and comments that being fat in this society can bring on.
• Become more confident socially, maybe even dating again.
• Become the physical person I want to be.
• Return to fencing without shame or self hatred.
• Accomplish all of the above out of the corner of my eye (i.e. not constantly struggling or at war with myself).