Level 3: Dead Zone Welcoming Committee [4/5/22 | 252.2 lbs]

Externalizing and reframing my thoughts.

Daily Article Notes

Relevant notes from my daily set of Noom articles.

• An exercise from today's article asks me to write down every thought I've had since I woke up. That's... a lot, but I'll indulge the exercise a bit by writing down SOME thoughts I remember.
• "I'm awake, but how much time am I allowed to stay in here and go back to sleep before I have to get up?"
  
• "It feels so good to not be surrounded by clutter and debris the way I was last night."
• "Glad the curtains are open. It makes a real difference."
• #3: "Yesterday's binge certainly brought my weight back up. I'll never change my body to something I'm happy with in any long-term way."
• "I need to cook more. Just cooked an omelet and it felt satisfying. Not just the practical saving money or the taste, but the feelings of turning raw food into something I enjoy and cleaning it up afterwards. Felt adult."
• Ah. The point of this exercise was to say that those thoughts are separate from me. I am not my thoughts. They exist on the page now, just as they existed in my brain but separate from my being. I believe that.
• metacognition: awareness and understanding of one's thoughts and thought processes.
• So the goal here is to reframe my thoughts. Specifically, the distorted thoughts. Many of my thoughts today are unusually healthy, but some of them... not as much.
• Example: #3, the bolded thought above. How do I reframe this?
• Well, I've already lost over 30 pounds. I plateaued since then, but clearly I can make long-term weight loss stick. I ALREADY HAVE.
• There's no need to predict the future, let alone predict it pessimistically. Let's try it and see how it goes.

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General Notes

It's only the morning, but today's already feeling WAY better than yesterday. Drank water, took meds, been clearing out emails and just staying on top of things. My curtains are open. It's rainy outside, but there's still a cloudy daylight coming through. 

My bedroom curtains were also open last night, so the daylight woke me up. 

Cleaned my kitchen last night and kept it clean today as I cooked breakfast. 

Little things.

Sketching today's meals

• B: Two egg omelet with mozzarella.
• L: Chipotle brown rice bowl with steak, vegetables, guacamole.
• D: Buffalo chicken bowl.